new book.

it's d end of 2009.
bubye 2009.
will miss u alot.

2010.

new year.

new inspiration.

new way of lyfe.

saying goodbye to everythng dat happened in 2009.
evry single thng dat makes me what i am now.
it doesnt mean dat evrythng happened is not i wished for.
sum of it is.
yet i still believe.
dat evrythng happened for a reason.

new year's resolution?

dun have one.
i evaluate my lyfe evryday.
wuts d point evaluating ur lyfe on new year's eve.
n living d same old lyfe for d rest of d new year?

wuteva.
wouldnt care less bout others.
i'm living my own lyfe.
w/o disturbing others.
so dun evn think bout intervening my lyfe.
especially d personal part.

wishing evrybody on planet earth.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

hope it will b a great one for all of u n me ofcuz..
live lyfe 2 d fullest!

i'll be going to Melaka tomorrow.
for Kursus Calon MPP.
i know.i know.
boring ayte?
duhh~

i better go now.
settling things.
tooddles~

mode:: hell bored.

p/s:: i'm not flirting.i'm just being nice.flirting is soo0o0o not me..

manusia.

menyanyi2.

cakap sorang2.

jalan sorang2.

orang pandang pelik.

sampai nak terlanggar tiang asyik tenung aku.

ada aku kisah?

aku yang jalan tak pkai contact lens pon tetap tak langgar orang.

yang ko gila nak langgar tiang tu pehal?

kalau ko tak puas hati ngan segala benda aku wat.

takyah ar sebok amik tau segala hal psal aku.

dapat?

kalo tak puas hati aku suka menyanyi sorang2.

takyah tngok aku.

kalo tak puas hati aku jalan simpang siur tak stabil.

jangan duk mengekor kat blakang aku.

kalo tak puas hati ada orang laki cakap ngan aku,bukan ngan ko.

jual la diri ko tu.

jaja abes2 bagi smua jantan nak kat ko.

mak bapak aku pon jarang2 amek port psal hal aku.

yg ko 25jam,8hari smnggu,366hari setahun nak nyemak dalam hidup aku pehal?

rimas la.

paham tak rimas tu apa?

lepas ni.

jangan amik tau pon pasal aku.

aku tak perlu ko dalam hidup aku.

dapat?

sudah la.

menyampah la aku ngan ko.

baik ko blah.

jangan smpai aku maki ko dlam bhsa perancis.

dapat?

mode:: menyampah tahap gaban babi punya.rasa cam nak menyumpah seranah.

p/s:: kalo aku dah ckap aku tak suka,maksudnya aku btol2 tak suka.paham tak?ke nak aku goncang kepala ko bagi senang paham??

healed?

hey all!!!
missing diz place a lot.
started my final semester on 21st dec.
started my nerd mode on d second day.
*which i didnt hve d tyme to read d books yet since i'm so damn busy*

fever mode.

d temp is fooling me evryday.
going up n down.
termometer pn bley pecah pning xtaw nk bce temp cmne..
*sigh*

mending heart.

healing session.

forced smile.

1st week in ukm.
n d workloads is killing me.
not whining.
but d fever is making me weak.
i cant focus on d lappy to finish up my paperwork.
*duhh*

just came back from Johor.
my last program for college.
well,it was coordinated by juniors.
so we as d seniors just joined by invitation.
as VIPs.. :)

what could i say?
it was GREAT!
new concept,new approach.
good work juniors!

finally,we are siblings.
me,fara,mo0n,ainie.
i just cant imagine if it's for real.
hahaha
d house might turn upside down with us inside it.. XD

d family was superb.
sporting abes!!
unfortunately,their sons were all married.
hahaha

even d temp is fooling me around.
still i'm enjoying my time there.
with my girls.
evn though at d first place i'm not so into diz prog.
cz of RTW!
but,d bond was so great.
it's GOD's will for me to be with em all d tyme.
n i'm loving it!

thanx babes..
for d tyme we spent together diz 3years.
it's just like yesterday we met at college.
n now..
it's time to be apart..
love u babes loads~
*hugs n kisses*

mode:: playful fever.sexy voice.mending heart.

p/s:: could u feel d empty space beside me?pweeeez~

bitchy belle.

listen up people.
dun pissed me off if u dont like me being a bitch.

everything's so FUCKed up.
results.
college.
classes.
re-scheduling.
perfect timing.

first of all.
i'm sorry if this post sounded so harsh.
but this is d only way i can say anythng.
n no one will say anythng back.
bcoz there's nobody LISTENING.
aite?

quotation.
"ignorance is bliss"

-this is d part where belle's friend is typing,not her-

she's so good.
acted decently.
like never before.

she's never been like diz.
never been so good.

i never saw her just keep quiet.
controlling her temper.
didn't argue much.
lowering her ego level.
*which is way much higher than u boys*
i know dat bcz i've known her for such a long time.

i can't say much.
didn't like to interfere.
but all i'm trying to say is..
treat her nicely.
if u want her to treat u nicely too.
for as i know,
"once this good girl gone bad..she is never the same belle you ever known before."
*you should trust me on this*

mode:: fucking up myself.

p/s:: run along people!d drama is just about to get a lil more exciting.

p/ss:: injected.again.stupid anemia.stupid virus infections.stupid bulimia.

time capsule.

according to d title.
yes.
i finally open mine.

opened all d old boxes.
pop!
comes out all d memories.
n at dat moment.
i hesitated.

d boxes contains memories.
memories i wish i could forget.
photo albums.
picture frames.
birthday cards.
hp chains.
my lil blue poem book.
*ouh!*

i stared at all diz things.
b4 i stood up n bring it downstairs.
i planned to just burn it all up.
so d memories could fade away.
*is dat so?*

i put it in d cupboard under d stairs.
so i could forget they were there.
so i could never open d box again.

there it goes.
d memory lane.
bubye~

mode:: bitching around

p/s:: i wish i'm dat gurl.whom u point to through d crowd n say, "dats my baby"....~

A friend is someone we turn to when our spirits need a lift.

end of story.

stupid U*M!!
sudden increase of debt on my student's acc.
wut else do u want me to pay huh??

i paid for ur stupid slow-like-a-snail wireless connection.
i paid for invisible MPP progs.
i paid for d dumbass college accommodation.
i evn paid for all d facilities i cant evn use.
urgghh!!~

lemme think.
u add up my subjects fee.
u were suppose to ask dat from MARA u stupid treasurer!
too lazy is it?
lemme do ur work for u.
then u'll see ur ass got kicked out of U*M w/o a notification!

for ur lazy ass.
i cant check my result.
thx a lot.
i'll make sure diz thing will go straight to d deputy vice chancellor.
now see who's laughing.
HAHAHA

few more days.
will be seeing my classmates again.
ouh!
hus n eqin.
how i missed u babes a lot!!

will be working my ass out.
on my beloved thesis.
from day one.
ouh,there comes NERDY BELLE..
*surely i cant wear contacts to look nerd aite??*
ouh wait,where's my specs??
damn~

havent pack my things.
so so so lazy.
y on earth i didnt learn how to move all my things in a blink of an eye using magic??
haishhh~

on top of everything.
i hate holidays.
repeat.
I HATE HOLIDAYS.

i slept for 12-16 hours per day.
n i continue sleeping after waking up for few hours.
yet i still am sleepy at nytes.
from where did i gain all d lazyness?
ouh,i remember.
i'm a POLAR BEAR.
remember??
we do hibernate a lot.

lets talk bout eating.
hate rice.
i've been eating a lot of dat thing during FEStKUM.
had enuff.

non stop eating people.
biscuits.
breads.
yogurts.
mcD.
KFC.
PIZZA HUT.
cheese.
etc.etc.

wo0o0ho0o..
now tell me.
am i fat??
plz say yes.
so i'll stop eating immediately!
sob3~

silly belle.
even if ur heart's broken.
dun stuff foods inside u.
find a glue.
stick em together will ya?
hmm~

ok people.
last call.
whoever wants to go out diz weekend.
call me.
or just leave ur msg here or fb.
tooddles~

mode:: back to school

p/s:: stupid piece of glass.u make me bleed! :(

missing.

nearly a week w/o d boys.
it's been different.
totally different.

no more bus driver calling at 6am every morning.
no more vegetarian food.
no more laundry trip.
no more shopping spree.
no more late nyte talk.
no more boys teasing me.

missing em badly :(

planning a trip to Bangalore after my trip to Paris next year.
hoping for them to be here again in July.
for d next cricket tournament.
ouh,plz do come..

just finished my last program during this semester break.
Festival Kebudayaan Universiti-universiti Malaysia (FEStKUM09)
d opening ceremony in UKM was great.
but d closing ceremony in UM was boring.

meeting new friends from all over Malaysia was great.
having good time with em.
getting to know each other.
hanging around,crack stupid jokes.
it was fun.

izhan,pae,iva,ayapp,me,faqih,syamil

1 more week before my final semester.
3 more subjects before graduating.
it would be a totally hectic 1st half of 2010.

life planning.
working or studying?
car or apartment?
*sigh*

total upside down.
need to be on track again.
sorry life.
i abandoned u for such a long tyme.

i'm going to do a checklist.
reality check.
bcz me n my heart.
we got issues.
*hate it*

too many questions asked.
no answer to be given.

slapped on d face.
when they kept asking me questions.
which i know i cant tell d truth.
y do i have to lie?
they didnt let me keep quiet.
they wouldnt wait for an answer.

stop it.
stop staring at me.
stop asking me questions.

someone asked me,
"what's a gf job?"
i simply said,
"ask ur bf y he needed u to be his gf.."
another question.
"why boys can have more than 1 gf but girls cant?"
"why boys can flirt but girls cant talk to other boys when they're in a relationship?"

i think maybe after this.
i should carry around a desk n a chair.
plus big log book n loads of pens.
so i could set up a information counter everywhere n anywhere i go.

something i wanted to say to someone out there.
but i just cant.
"GET A LIFE U PATHETIC BITCH!!"
pheewww~
*what a relief*

question:: who am i to u?

mode:: clubbing.shuffle.party all nyte.

p/s:: loved by people around me.but not from d one i need d most.y?

16 boys.

it's been a while huh?
sowie.
too tired to update my blog.

1 week passed by.
they said.
"after this we wont be bothering u anymore nabilah"
boys,i'm happy knowing u guys.
so,no worries.

a lot of things happened.
nothing personal.

being wif em.
i learned loads of new things.
their culture.way of life.
way of treating girls.
*get it boys?*

they took care of me.
like how i took care of their needs here.
they wont let me carry heavy things.
they dont make me wait for em.
they constantly check if i'm ok n need sumthing to eat.
thanx boys.

from a quiet boy to a talkative one.
that's wut they became in few days wif me.
i noticed diz changes.
they talked a lot.
they asked loads of questions.
they also starting to tease me.
good one boys.
hehe~

ok people.
i'll update u guys later.
got only 3days left wif em.
need to enjoy d last moments aite?

p/s: uploaded d pics on fb already.

mode: enjoying hanging around wif 16boys at 1 tyme.cool huh? ;)