early november.

not even end of october.

am welcoming november.

workloads.

ohh! T_T'

2 nov- thesis proposal presentation

3 nov- Japan's defense policy presentation

5 nov - midsem break! :)

14 nov - policy memo submission

15 nov - contemporary international relations exam

16 nov - thesis proposal submission

19 nov - Red Carnival Day volunteer training & briefing

21 nov - discussant International Institutions and Multilateralism presentation

22 nov - draft submission Great Powers and Use of Violence essay

26 & 27 nov - Red Carnival Day

mode: pretty busy.

p/s: this is my november.

never ever.

"Best Thing You Never Had"

Hello how you doing?
What's it like to ruin all my self esteem
Let me blow off some steam
For 5 years I've waited,
So why am I jaded to get back at you
What makes it cool

When you act like nothing ever happened
I feel like I should feel bad
But I can't like someone who thought
They're the only one that mattered
I hope that you're flattered
Cause you broke this down
The best thing that you never had

And it seems like a loss somehow
My heart got lost on the way to my head
And my brain cells are dead
And the craziness shows
Now I start to go when the green turns to red
And I should be dead

When you act like nothing ever happened
I feel like I should feel bad
But I can't like someone who thought
They're the only one that mattered
While my heart got shattered like romantic roadkill
My heart is all splattered your ego got fatter
And I hope that you're flattered
Cause you broke this down
The best thing that you never had

Like the toilet seat never got lifted
And I pissed on your confidence
When you weren't around, how can that be?
Don't turn this around
You were the one
Who drove my ass right to the ground

When you act like nothing ever happened
I feel like I should feel bad, and I can't like

You never had...
And never will..

noted.

hey2..how r u doing bloggie?
mish u.. :/

i missed how i used to be.
talk so much.
laugh histerically.
jumping w/o any good reasons.

but nowadays.
i felt am a bit old.
not bcz of my age ofcz.

i dont do late night drinks anymore.
i must sleep at 1am atleast everyday.
i ate accordingly.
i worried too much.

what happened to belle?
am worried i lost myself too.

am letting go all of the people i think would never made it til my last breath.
it's not that i dont love them.
but i dont feel like i wont move forward if i'm still around them.
so this is me moving on.
sorry.

so for now,i dont do craps.
enuff of it i guess.
trying hard to fill up my time with things.
getting busy helps a lot getting my mind off some things.
you know what n who ayte. :)

i'll let my photos talk everything else for me as usual oke? :)

coolest shirt ever.plus car sticker.proud to be ANSARA! 

coolest reunion ever.wo0o0t! :)

fatty me.blurghh!

latest book bought.nerd me.i know.

my one n only babyboo.u met him before ayte? 

am part of dz too!cant wait! :)

ohmy.i love my single life.
never thought i would say dat ever.
haha

exactly 1 more week til my birthday.
and am stuffed with workloads.
life's been pretty good so far.
yeay! :)

til then,toodles!

mode: stuffy nose with headache.

p/s: it will take more than what ur doing right now to win over my heart.please take note.

mon mon.

mak saya cakap,saya montok.
dengan nada selamba oke.
seriously,sentap.

kejadian di dapur 5ptg,16okt 2011.
mak: "dah makin montok.nampak macam anak dara sikit."
me: "sape mak?"
mak: "budak nama nabilah tu."
me: "pe kaetan?"
mak: "montok la..cantik sikit tengok"

trus lari ruang tamu pegi timbang berat.
demm.
patut laa..memang melampau2 naek berat aku.
sioddd~

*ngadu kat mak*
mak: "pegi letak org lain kat penimbang tu,pastu try cek balik."
me: "nape camtu plak.rosak ke?"
mak: "penimbang tu tipu biela.mak tak percaya berat biela naik"

i felt so low peeps.
can u feel me? :(

oke,i'll try hard to:
-not to have fast foods
-not taking late night snacks
-not having cold drinks
-not having chickens
-not having rice
-not drinking milky drinks
-not everything else

uwaaa..maw nanges sudaa.. :(

claps.

just by thinking of this,i nearly cried. :(

my BIRTHDAY - 29 oct

as in my daily planner,lots of marked dates with important thingies.such as:

29oct-comparative defense policy replacement class
31oct-submission date for policy memo
1nov-contemporary international relations exam
2nov-research proposal presentation
3nov-Japan's defense policy presentation

did I foreseen anything?
nope.nothing at all.

did you people noticed the problem here?
nevermind.
i'll just tell you what it is.
this year will be my 5th year of celebrating my birthday in such way.
yes,it has been like this since 2007.
so lucky am i?
thank you.

so today,am celebrating my own birthday.
with cakes n ice cream.
happy birthday in advance belle.
your 23 now.
yeay!

cant write anything anymore.
til then,toodles.