painful life...

lately i was so damn miserable..i dunno why..but i tend to realize it was me who kept on thinking of all those stupid stuffs...i've mixed up all my problems..my feelings,friends,family..hey,even though i tend to smile a lot..it doesn't mean i don't have any problems...my mom once said i'm a kind of person who hides own emotion just to please others..stupid or too kind??hmmm..

i think i've been so boringg with my life lately that i'm able to have a spare time to think about myself,my own feelings and my own problems...wait til next semester..i'll be too busy doing my works,attending classes,meetings,handling programs...until i tend to forget the date,days,time,eat,sleep and even my family..sorry mom n dad!!

once my dad scolded me for being sick..he said.."abah dh ckp,jgn wat byk kje sgt..smp lpe mkn mnum..kn dh skt..." sowie abah..i didn't mean to forget all those things but sometimes..i'm more worried of not having time to finish my work rather than worrying bout myself..

i can't wait to finish diz whole university thingy..so i can have tyme for my parents..and not to forget my bro n sis..it hve been ages since i went shopping with my sis n also treat them to muvees..wut a good big sis i am ryte??hahahah...

as to my FRIENDS..sorry!sumtymes..i realized..i dun evn hve tyme to talk with u guys..during the semester..i hope in my final year which starts this coming july..i'll hve more tyme with u guys..gosh!i can't think of d tymes without my darlings (fara,moon,ainie)...babe,tinggal lg bpe bulan je kn??huhuhu='(

as to my delicate HEART..i noe u've been hurt so many times..i noe u've decided to gave up on love..but i think..to love and to be loved by someone..is what every people seeks in this painful life..maybe just to fill the emptiness..to find a reason to smile..or mybe..it have no reason..it just happens...it's a GOD's will..let HIM decide what to do with u dear..just follow the flow...and give LOVE a second chance..

for this tyme being..i just wanna enjoy!!hve fun..live lyfe to the fullest..b4 i came back to my reality world..a workaholic lil teenage gurl..(my mom said diz to me)

let love lead the way...