open season.

hey all!
i'm back.
sorry for d long silence.
i'm trying to focus on myself rather than my feelings lately.
but i failed.

dat stupid IMGLAD program has been delayed to god knows when.
i hate waiting.
maybe it's not what i meant to do ayte?

right now i dun think i want to further studies.
planning to do an international masters at UM.
on Regional Integration or ASEAN studies.
but the fees is like 20k per semester.
F??!
maybe after working for sumtyme i will continue studying.
who knows better luck i'll get my masters for free..
huhu

what else?
yeah,i'm living a super boring life.
sleep,eat,tv,house chores,tv,sleep.
super duper stupid lame lyfe of me.
yeah2.
laugh all u can.
i'm too sad to even give a fuck bout my stupid life.

i hate it when i cant do anything on my own.
i hate it when i have to ask permissions.
i hate it when i have to sit down at home watching tv til 10pm n goes to bed after that like a 6year old kid.(i'm 22 for god sake!)
i hate it when people asking me questions dat i dont think is appropriate.
i hate being locked up at home.
urghh!!!

applied for several vacancies at maybank,cimb,etc2.
no answers.
cz it's related to HR.
why cant they gimme a chance to learn dat thing?
i'm flexible.
went to science school for 5years & i end up taking law n politics n strategic studies.
i guess my brain can work for HR thingy.

ouh yes!
i also aplied for a researcher post for the ex-head of putri umno.
her PA called to confirm i sent my cv to her.
waiting for d next call for an interview at the parliament!
pray for me ayte?
*fingers-crossed!*

newsflash!
i'm done waiting n hoping.
it's not gonna work for me.
i hate being stupid.
i hate when i still believe in others.
when i know they are lying n using me.

stop it guys.
i'm not ur rebound girl.
fuck off okay??
if u think i'm an easy catch.
u thought wrong!
i hate u.
i hate u.
n i hate u.
yes.
plz notified urself jerks!

ouh god.
i wish i never met all of u guys.
stupid jerks.

mode: falling apart.

p/s: i dont who i am anymore..i dont what i've become too..