live.dream.love.

i updated my resume.
i dont know why.
but i feel like i have to.
duhh!

last night was such a nightmare.
idk why i felt so low.
i felt lke crying.
but d tears wont come out.

i forced myself to sleep.
but my head kept on spinning.
wth am i thinking bout?

come on belle.
ur on d right track.
work hard to walk to d right end.

i guess i'm lying to myself.
i'm not dat strong.

yes,i'm always smiling and laughing and joking around.
but who d hell knows how hard my heart's crying deep down inside?

i guess faking a smile to others is a lot easier than to pretend ur ok when ur all alone ayte?

workloads is piling up.
and its getting harder each week.
lets focus belle.
yes belle.
focus!

so peeps,pls remind me why i'm here working my ass off pursuing my masters.
sometimes i feel like giving up.
yes,I DO.

ohh God.plz show me the way.
i chosed dz to be part of my life now and u granted it.
plz let me know how can i go through all this. :'(

mode: falling apart.

p/s: i need a parachute.