sinked.

ohh,sangat down.

tolong? :(

no one can help me now.
i know only me can help myself in situation like diz.

feeling so low.
idk how low can my heart sink anymore.

i cant cry.
in d same tyme idk what i want.

i cant do anything.
i tried to study but nothing gets through my mind.
i just stared at d book hoping something will makes sense.
but,nothing happened.

i slept.
yes,i slept for 3 whole days.
hoping it will help my mood to recover.
no it didnt.

i dont feel like eating.
i dont feel like doing anything.
i dont feel like i am me anymore.

too tired?
got enough rest already i guess.

conflict of emotions?
idk.
i tried to push all those people away.
to avoid distractions.
but they seem reluctant to go away.

gawsh!
am feeling so choked up.
plz,stay away?
i need time for myself.
yes,i know i've been saying dat for how many times but dats d fact.
i need space.

plz God,i beg you.
make those feelings go away.
i cant let anyone near me & take my heart away.
i just cant trust anyone with my heart anymore.
just plz,plz,plz help me dz time.
i dont feel like i can love anyone with all my heart.
i wanted to but i refused to.

buck up belle.
just one more month.
yes,that's it.
just buck up.

mode: smiling with tears.

p/s: i dont care if u got a new gf.but just dont repeat d same mistake again.i swore to God i'll kill u.yes,i will.