escape.

been a while since i write.
here, diary, there.

what to say?
i cant say am not happy.
i am, indeed.
i cant say am not sad too.
am devastated.

no damage control done.
in fact, am letting it happen.
let it be.
am all damaged my own.

been labeled.
been accused of things i didn't do.
been bad-mouthed.

hey, who cares?
maybe you could say i should.
but why should i?
if you have the time to talk about me.
then maybe you should have the time to improve yourself too.
am i right? :)

now in the process of being heartless.
nahh, i am heartless.
so i guess i should build a wall.
thick enough.
and volume up the ego level.

it's June.
and am no where near the end of my thesis.
should really go die now.
lazy ass.

a sweet escape.
in need of one.
maybe i should use studies as an excuse.

an excuse to push people away.
so i can be okay.
and not getting involved with mixed emotions in daily sense.
so i can not be hurt again.
what say you?