losing faith.

i'm holding myself together tightly.
bcoz i'm falling apart each second.
i'm collecting every shattered pieces of my heart.
and in d same tyme i'm wiping away these tears.
every minutes n every seconds.

diz stupid eyes just wont stop crying.
i do need to get rid of em real fast.
they wont sleep.
n now they make me cry.
where would i find a new pair of lovely eyes???

losing faith.
yes.
i'm losing my faith ryte now.

i've stopped believing.
i've stopped being strong.
i even stopped wearing my happy face mask.

no more.
no more dat cute expression.
no more me smiling.
no more crazy belle laughing out so loud anywhere she wants.
no more me comforting other hearts.

searching for answers.
finding myself again.

what d hell happen to belle?
she's not her anymore.
she's not what she always are.

a sweet text msg.
"plz keep on smiling belle.i've faith in u."

i'll be crazy fighting myself n 2 killer papers.
then i have works to settle.
campus election,thesis,college program diz Xmas.

pray for me.
pray so i can be strong as usual.

not 2 forget.
thanx to all who tried so hard to make me smile again.
i appreciate it.
but i'm sorry i have no courage to force d smile for u guys.

people.
sorry.
i may not be having anything to say here anymore.
til then.
bubye~

mode:: searching for a lost soul.

p/s:: cute boys popping up in front of me like magic n even dare 2 say hello this few days..but they dont make my days any better..duhh~