confessions

somebody plz...
wipe away my tears..
it hurts..
like hell!
and all i can do is just cry..

i can't even breathe.

i can't even think.

i can't even find the right words to say.

i can't be any more upset than now.

my hands are shaking..

i'm so afraid i can't get thru another phase of frustration..

i can't afford to lose d one i love d most ryte now~

god,plz.
help me thru diz.
like u helped me b4..
plz god plz.
i'm begging u..
not now.
not him.
don't..
plz,just don't~

love=game??

looking at my friends.
cheated.
confused.
crying.
faking smiles.
i can't take it anymore.

even i do have my own personal problems.
but without them.
there's no sane 'me'.
as for my girls.
be strong.
we'll go through life together.
love you guys so much!!!~

therefore,this poem below is specially dedicated for my lovely friends..(farah,moon)
cheer up gurls!

You say that you're not ready to tell me
And you say that you need more time
But without knowing what the problem is
It feels like I'm the one commiting the crime

Coz it's been driving me crazy just thinking
Thinking about what the problem could be
I can tell that something's been bothering you
But why can't you open up to me?

Coz all I want right now is to sort this out
So please just tell me what's going on
You're making me feel like you're still here
But at the same time already gone

Coz today when I was holding your hand
It felt like it wasn't the same
And if only you could understand how I feel
I really hope you know that love is not a game

EMOTION-less!~

hurmm..wut to say..i totally LIKE him..wth is happening to me?my fwen said dat i'm so crazy..risking my feelings for him..hey,wut to do?it just happens!i dun even asked for it..but babe,am i stupid to like him?am i stupid wanting to have d feel of LOVING someone again?omg!i'm so pathetic..i kept thinking..am i doing the right thing?is diz d ryte feeling?

once..i thought of RUNNING away..running away from him..throwing away diz feelings..pretending nothing happened inside me..it HURTS!yea..i'm good in hurting myself..i felt so stupid..crying for a person..who doesn't even bother me..but in the end..i kept on running back to him..coz i just can't bare it..no one knows..all the TEARS i cried..all the FAKE SMILES..all the PRETENDING HAPPINESS..

once i said to my fwen..mybe diz is wut i hve to go through..just bcoz i'm WILLINGLY letting myself FALL FOR HIM in d first place..babe,thx for supporting me..thx for lending ur shoulders..thx 4 d CRYING session..

i felt so STUPID..i'm going CRAZY..stop it!stop HURTING me..yeah..i do said dat i'm willingly voluntaring my heart to be hurt during this period of healing ur heart...but i nvr knew..it would be so much worst than b4..at the tyme when this feelings were hidden from u..omigosh..it's so hurting me ryte now..stop cryin' belle..

'til then..i'll be completely ignoring u..but it doesn't mean i wanted to hurt u baby..i just want u to noe what it feels like..to be ignored by a person u like..and LOVE~