EMOTION-less!~

hurmm..wut to say..i totally LIKE him..wth is happening to me?my fwen said dat i'm so crazy..risking my feelings for him..hey,wut to do?it just happens!i dun even asked for it..but babe,am i stupid to like him?am i stupid wanting to have d feel of LOVING someone again?omg!i'm so pathetic..i kept thinking..am i doing the right thing?is diz d ryte feeling?

once..i thought of RUNNING away..running away from him..throwing away diz feelings..pretending nothing happened inside me..it HURTS!yea..i'm good in hurting myself..i felt so stupid..crying for a person..who doesn't even bother me..but in the end..i kept on running back to him..coz i just can't bare it..no one knows..all the TEARS i cried..all the FAKE SMILES..all the PRETENDING HAPPINESS..

once i said to my fwen..mybe diz is wut i hve to go through..just bcoz i'm WILLINGLY letting myself FALL FOR HIM in d first place..babe,thx for supporting me..thx for lending ur shoulders..thx 4 d CRYING session..

i felt so STUPID..i'm going CRAZY..stop it!stop HURTING me..yeah..i do said dat i'm willingly voluntaring my heart to be hurt during this period of healing ur heart...but i nvr knew..it would be so much worst than b4..at the tyme when this feelings were hidden from u..omigosh..it's so hurting me ryte now..stop cryin' belle..

'til then..i'll be completely ignoring u..but it doesn't mean i wanted to hurt u baby..i just want u to noe what it feels like..to be ignored by a person u like..and LOVE~