dead.

it's been a hell for me.
feels like killing myself.
and i'm doing dat ryte now.
slowly~

sumbody plz...
make me smile.
make me believe.
make me happy.
make me feel.
make me have feelings.
again~

i was so lost.
i cant even think properly.
i talked.i spoke.i laughed.
unconsciously.
w/o even knowing wut am i doing dat tyme.

i cant describe my feelings.
i cant decide.
i cant make up my mind.
i cant choose a word.

i'm a walking dead body.
so emotionless.
so numb.
so heartless.
so broken.

as i walk.
i'm collecting every shattered pieces of my heart.
trying to mend it back.
and throw it into a freezer.
so it will be frozen n COLD.

adik ckp,
"jgn sdey.tak cantek"
hassan ckp,
"xcun la kalo sdey2."
amm ckp,
"snyum la.plz."
omar ckp,
"xcomel la sdey2.owg ske tgk kmu snyum."

belle ckp,
"tak lrat nk buat2 happy ble hati nga trseksa.ckup stakat ni muka pura2 yg dlu tu."

mode:: pura2 kental.

p/s:: how did i become diz type of gurl??