angel love devil~

what did i do to myself?
i let myself believe.
keep on believing.
keep on holding on.
keep on being so strong.
but i end up being hurt.

should i stay?
should i leave?
should i believe?
should i hate?
should i let go?
should i pretend?

or should i just cry??

i please everyone.
i even pleased people dat i don't even know.
for what??

be a good girl nabilah.
my mom said dat to me.
ouh.
i'm so fucking tired of being such an angel to everyone else.
n yet,i'm hurt,used,ignored...

being a bitch is great.
we make people suffer.
we make people who make us suffer felt the same way too.

ouh..
been there.
done that.
no more d bitchy belle.
it's a big NO in my life right now.

but what if i came back being d bitchy belle??
would i be happier?
would people hurt me again n again?

sick n tired of being such an angel..
stop being good to other people belle.
stop making others happy.
instead ur making a poker face.

stop hurting me.
stop it.
stop it.
stop it!!

one of my friend said.
let them be.
they didn't realize how special u are..
they didn't know they will lose someone great from their life if they make u suffer..
keep moving on.
there's a lot more waiting in front of u..
there will be people who'll catch u when u fall..
there are persons who love u more than u know..

so god.
i thank you.
for all diz.
u make me realize.
life's easy.