transformation

it's september already!!!
wut i've done through out diz short 5th semester??
hurmm..
yeah!
i remember wut i did..

• spending money
• wasting time
• fooling around
• finding life
• trying to be happy
• faking smiles
• hiding sorrows

ouh.
loads of stuffs going on around me.
inside of me especially.
trying to ignore it completely.
but i just can't!
duhh~

never mind.
i'm still breathing.
gone through a lot before this.
nothing can make me weak..
is it??

things will get better in time.
let time heals me.
let love lead my way.

things dat keep me sane:

• lecturers
• great gurlfwens
• reminders on list of assignments
• mom's nag
  
• constant gravity reaction
• frequent meetings,programs

thanks to all.
for the support.
for the care.
for the reminders.
for taking me back to reality.
most important..
for keeping me sane.

transformation of life is happening.
my life i mean.
total change.
permanent changes?
hopefully~

my friends notice it.
they noticed it earlier than me.
it shows that i dont really care bout what's happening to me.
radical changes they said.
it's like..
"the new belle"

what did change?
what makes me change?
is it for the good of me?
or it's not?

coz i've try to change before this.
trying damn hard.
but in the end..
i got myself cheated,frustrated,left hopelessly~
twice!

changing for the third time.
let make this happen god.
plz..
let me be~